The mind will always create rules to keep us safe. Some of those rules are practical - like which way to look when crossing the road (though depends where you are for which way to look). But mind-in-service-to-the-separate-self is in overdrive creating rules to protect, preserve and promote that non-existent being.
Now, this might not always seem funny in the midst of it, but it's certainly ironic. In the nondual exploration that mind will come up with a million reasons why not to explore, "why I don't get it", why this is "just like that other thing I did". And a million more reasons why this quote, that teacher, this model holds the key.
Yet, awakening is knowing yourself as who you truly are, and knowing the nature of reality - which are the same thing. You don't need words, rules, quotes, cleverness, ability to pay attention, the right lipstick, lots of time, to be healthy, or ANY THING to realise your own nature.
And then that cunning separate self mind pops back in and add a "yeah, but" to the realisation.
The irony is that until the mind switches allegiance to the true self, it's going to do these things - for what seem like great reasons. It's a security guard defending a VIP, as far as it's concerned. The very same mind, freed of the habitual deference to an imaginary self can support further enlightenment, because now it's coming into alignment with reality.
Give the poor thing time - it's worked hard and is exhausted. But notice the "yeah, but"s for what they are, and see if you can allow those thoughts without believing them. A little bit of compassionate laughter at the things the mind throws up can be very healthy.
Happy weekend, everyone.
With Love, Sara